Waiting

I am waiting

For the spring that should be here already

For my cat to not die

For my acne to clear up again (honestly what is this who authorized this I am not in my teens/early twenties)

For my body to actually not just be hungry, but also let me eat

For the magical moment when all the stress and trauma and everything finally stops affecting every part of who I am

For the moment when I'm finally an adult, not just an adult, but a more adultier adult

For my heart to not fall in love so quickly or so hard

For the ability to actually make a living wage that doesn't require me to work 60+ hours a week so I'm no longer a burden

For my rights and my life to not be in jeopardy

For clothing with actual usable pockets being commonly available in the clothing I'd like to wear

For the moment I can spend a whole night rollerskating and not be terrified I'm about to crash

For the moment I am not terrified to drive

For the farmer's market to open

For myself to be fully comfortable in my own skin again

For the time and energy to see the ones I love

For at least one of these damn animals to go out and get a job and start contributing to the household

For my body to start showing signs I've been going to the gym

For a night of uninterrupted, restful sleep

For the grace to be enough for myself

For peace

For grace

For me